Thursday, February 20, 2020

Miss me?

It's been a minute since I have written anything, but there has been a lot going on in the Smith house.

My beautiful child opened up to me about a month ago and told me that they felt more feminine than masculine. So my son is now my daughter. She also wants to go by a different name now. I couldn't be more proud of her for living her truth. I got her an appointment for the adolescent and trans health clinic in the area. That was she has professionals who specialize in this to talk to, and to help her along her journey. I also got her registered for a personal clothing thing to help her get gender conforming clothing. We are just waiting until they are able to set an appointment for her.

Had her reassessed, trying to get an autism diagnosis, and got the results a couple of weeks ago. She was not diagnosed with ASD. We were basically told the same stuff we were told with the last two assessments. She's close, but not enough to get the diagnosis. We were also told to keep up with her therapy and try to find meds that will work for her, if we want to continue on the medication route. She's been off meds for a couple of months now, so we would be starting fresh if we did that.

Her school isn't helping the matter at all either, but I will wait until a meeting we have set before I talk about everything that has been going on with that.

I got myself an assessment too. Basically because since I was diagnosed with ADHD I never really felt like that was a proper diagnosis. The medication for someone with ADHD made me feel like I was on speed. And that is how people without ADHD respond to the medication. So, after a 4 hour long assessment I was diagnosed with moderate to severe anxiety (which I already knew) and a learning disability in math. I struggle with reading as well, but not enough that there is a disability there. My sleep is jacked also. So, add a poor sleep habit and massive anxiety, that can and does cause me to have concentration issues. I also learned that because I have a learning disability I can get a math tutor if I ever want to improve my math skills. The dr that did my assessment also recommended some therapists for me to help work on my anxiety. I'm probably going to try and set an appointment with someone on Monday. Medication alone isn't enough. I need medication and therapy to help me live normally.

I know I'm forgetting about something, which is typical for me, but I'm excited to help my daughter on her journey to be able to live authentically. As long as she is happy I am happy. I'll keep ya'll posted on everything.